It's Glorious

Have you ever wondered what your life would be like in 5 years? Or maybe looked back 5 years and remember what you imagined "today" would be like?

I always do! I don't what it is, but I think I'm fairly predictable with my life's outcomes. I know you're probably wondering, "well you never guessed you would married Leroy LAST year." And that is quite true. But I DID know, I would marry him again. But overall, I can honestly say, I have an idea of what's to come for me and my life.

In the next five years, I will more then likely still be working at the Printing Division. I will be of "high value" there, so I will probably be head operating some sort of machine or machines. Maybe even be a Supervisor. I sure hope so. I think the Binder needs a little better Leadership and I feel I can help. I'm not saying I'm any better then the Supervisors now, but I think I can help.

A lot has been on my mind lately. With this new year and all and these new goals that have been set. I haven't felt this focused in a long time. These goals that I have are seeped deep within. It's like literally NOTHING can stop me from reaching my goal. Every morning, I say prayer, every night I say prayer. It's become so clear that it's slowly becoming habit. And it's a good one. It's a good feeling.

I want to share a personal experience. Something that has really reached out to me. It's something that is very close to my heart and I want to say that because of this experience, I CAN NOT FALTER.

We were driving home from church. This is last Sunday, January 4, 2015. And I don't remember what we were arguing about, but I WAS SO MAD! Me and Leroy just kept at it. I felt like we just couldn't find the middle of the argument to come clear with whatever it was that we were arguing about. But arguing loudly nonetheless.

We get home and I go help change the kids out of their church clothes and I just go straight to our room. I don't want to talk to him. He can cook dinner by himself. I'm in a "whatever" mode.

While I'm in the room, I'm sitting in the closet collecting hangers to hang up coats and putting away shoes. My blood is still boiling from our argument. I sit there and stare to the ceiling and for the life of me, I am pleading for help. My heart yearns to Heavenly Father for something, anything that will help me, to help us, to help our family.

As I get back to my closet cleaning, my Ipad was sitting on the drawer. My Ipad lights up and music starts to play. I am a good 4 or 5 feet away from my drawer. So yes, my ipad started to play ALL BY ITSELF. Now, not only is it playing, it's playing a Janice Kapp Perry song. I Walk by Faith to be exact. It didn't play from the beginning,  it only played a part of the song...

"I understand the meaning of accountability. Every choice for good or real is my responsibility. I want to build the kingdom and good works is the key. By doing what I know is right, I show integrity. I walk by faith. A Daughter of Heavenly Father. Divine am I in nature by inheritance and someday when God has proven me, I'll see him face to face. But just for here and now, I'll Walk by Faith."

After that, it turned off.

I buried my face into the palms of my hands. I couldn't hold back the tears after that. I felt as though Heavenly Father was speaking directly to me through my Ipad. I will never question the church or teaching after confirmation like that.

As I cried, I couldn't stop smiling. It was comfort and peace that immediately took over my anger and frustration.

This little moment of my life that happened only a week ago has changed my life forever.

I have been so much more happier, more appreciative and more grateful for this gospel.

I hope you all can find meaning in this life and include Heavenly Father in it.

Yesterday we had a Sister's Date Night. Planned by Lady Lehua. We went downtown to the Joseph Smith Memorial Building and watched Meet the Mormons.

This movie was so inspiring. I can't wait to take my little family. This is definitely something Leroy can benefit from. Here is the trailer in case you might want to go watch it too. It is free downtown.

My favorites would have to be the Missionary Mom because I feel I could relate to her story in different ways. My second favorite would be The Fighter. She makes me want to aspire to something greater. =)

The last thing I wanted to share was a song from the movie. Take a minute out of your day to sit and really listen to it. Anyone can relate to this song.

Glorious by David Archuleta

Let the year continue with this Spiritual High. It's keeping me together and bringing me to places I have never felt before. I'm not perfect. I will continue to hit bumps along the way and that's exactly what I want. The bumps in life remind me of the Savior. He atoned for my sins and for that I will show gratitude and keep on the straight and narrow.

xoxo Via

The Harvest Year

Well here we are 2015.

Happy New Year!!

Coming into this new year, I normally think of all he dreams and goals I have  planned to conquer throughout the year. This New Years was different for me. INsted of dreaming of new success for the upcoming year. I looked back on the preious year with true gratitude and I remembered all the things that have brought me to where I am today.

Goals for this year have been set. Ill share a few.

1. Understnding the gospel to the fullest.
2. Sharing and Living the gospel.
3. Go to the Temple.
4. Continue Education
5. Work hard to be the best Mom there is.

This year will  be different. I can feel it.

I was reading in a book last week about the belated prophet Ezra Taft Benson. Who grew up a farm boy and learned at an early age of hard work. I wanted to share something that caught my attention.

"He came to know in those lean days that without hard work, nothing grows but weeds. There must be a labor, incessant and constant, if there is to be a harvest."

"Throughout the years of his mature life, when he walked with preidents and kings, he never lost the touch of his boyhood farm days. He never lost his capacity for work. He never lost the will to rise at dawn and wok into the night."

Before, I would have picked up a more modern day book. But with all these changes and coming into this new year, I decided to learn basics from the Prophets of old. And I have to say, I really like the change I'm feeling inside.

Humility is big. Gratitude is big. Love is big.

This year is my "harvest" year. The year I will go head up with EVERTHING that tries me. EVERYTHING that tests me. EVERYTHING that challenges me.

This is my harvest year.

Xoxo Via

A Bit Of Humanity

Friendship. 

I don't think any one person can live without a friend. And if they do, then that's what I would call a cold world. You have hi and bye friends. You have hey lets have lunch friends. And then you have friends that have keys to your house or use your car on the regular and you know that's ok because you've reached that level of trust. I have a friend that has become a regular in my life and Tamara and Henele's life. I know I can tell her anything and get an honest judgement back that I know I won't feel bad. 

I tend to catch expressions. Facial expressions that speak way louder then words. I don't like to be taken advantage of. But recently I feel that I am. From rolling eyes to "smerks." You know the ones I'm talking about. 

Taking a step back and thinking about it all. I know that the only true people I can trust is my blood. As much as I would love to help as many people as I can through life struggles. When i talk to people, they talk and I listen. But it gets overwhelming for me. Cause I feel what they feel when they share. 

I HAVE to be mindful of what I say and how I say it because of how trusting people are telling me things. I also have to be careful of what I share. Because in the end, when they end up turning their back on me, I would have handed them all their bullets through the things I willingly shared. 

My brain will resort to a little bubble. An indestructable bubble. One that only few can make their way in. 

lol I get so lost in my own analogies that I don't make sense sometimes. That's what happens when your brain runs at warp speed and your fat fingers can't type worth crap. haha 

T&H

Be friends. Choose wisely who you share the deep things with. Make sure you build strong bonds with your TRUE friends and always be mindful of what you share to cover your bases. Don't feel inferior of saying what you FEEL and what you KNOW is right. And always smile. Remember, when it comes to friends, your SMILE is the key. =) 

xoxo Via

Just Lovely

Sometimes life is like bulls in a chinese shop. A crack here, a chip there. WE ALL HAVE CRACKS AND CHIPS IN LIFE. And as much as you try and avoid the fact, they will always be there until you decide to seal it. And sometimes avoided cracks slowly grow so big it becomes unavoidable. You have to fix it. But what sucks in these instances is that some of the things that grow big and become unavoidable become permanent because of lack of care or we've resorted to just plain giving up. 

We become damaged. 

Everyone deserves love. True love. Yes, this has already been established forever ago. And what I think, is that the damage that we slowly create throughout our lives can only be fixed through your true love. 

Life is short. 

You do not get unlimited chances to have the things we want. This I know. Nothing is worse than missing an opportunity that could've changed your life. So make your move now. Sometimes when you think you have that opportunity and you think it will always be there, might not be and when you realize it's lost, you look back. 

I think part of the reason why we hold on to something so tight is because we fear something so great won't happen twice. But if you don't know FOR SURE that it's that great, should we hold on?

I'm in love with himm. But I've been waiting in the storm long enough, I may need to adjust my sails. I don't know what I'm waiting for. I just hate not knowing. It's like I've been walking in super thick fog. I can't see where I'm going. I can only see the next step and for some of us, the next step is enough. And if I'm being honest with myself, I need more then just the next step. 

This time, I'm gonna forget about my happily ever after. It'll make it's debut when it's right. 

ALWAYS BELIEVE THAT SOMETHING WONDERFUL IS ABOUT TO HAPPEN. 

xoxo Via 

HIM

A wise man once said you can have anything in life if you're willing to sacrifice everything for it. 

What he meant is nothing comes without a price. So before you go into battle you better decide how much you're willing to lose. Too often, going after what feels good means letting go of what you know is right. And letting someone in means abandoning the walls you spent a lifetime building. Of course the toughest sacrifices are the ones we don't see coming. When we don't have time to come up with a trajedy to pick a side or to measure the potential loss. When that happens, when the battle chooses us and not the other way around that's when the sacrifice can turn out to be more then we can bare. 

Love: (noun) a feeling of strong or constant affection for a person, place or thing. Warm attachment, enthusiasm, passion or devotion towards things in our lives. 

Love is constant. I think. I love. It's got me all edgy. But.. once I'm there, like there ready to throw my hand down with all walls crumbling at me feet, I slowly see the wall begin to form back up. 

I've built up some pretty tough walls for myself and I've always imagined my white knight coming to knock right through it with ease and there we are. I know it's fair tale like and I may sound pathetic, but it's not like any of you have fantasized you're love story before. I'm in "strong like" and I guess you can interpret that to "love" if you'd like. I know this because when I am with him, I'm not myself and when I'm not myself, it bugs the heck out of me because I DON'T FALL IN LOVE. I've begun to question myself, I've thought things over and over again. Thinking to myself, "come on V, what's gotten into you." Answer - HIM!

I've met guys. I've gone out. But him... damn. HIM intrigues me. If there is one thing I know I do well, it's figuring out people. I've studied, observed and listened to many people. And I am very good at getting people to "open up." Maybe it's part of my personality. I know i am one rambunctious person. I've been told that many times. And I guess it's what I portray that gives others that "comfortable" feeling and then - boom - I know their life story. 

I hate that I can't figure HIM out. I'm gonna let things pan out on it's own. (not my best or favorite move) but... just this once because I clench when it comes to HIM. HIM will be my most worked. 

Love. (noun) One crazy feeling I've never really felt before until HIM came along. 

Since that morning at starbucks and had our first coffee. 

xoxo Via

One Way Or Another

She has entered into a world where smiles are constant, speech is kind, love is endless and time is favored. She's hit rock bottom before and has risen above it all. She has dug her hole so deep that only she was able to climb out. She has altered life in many ways that life now stands comfortably. She dismisses negativity and genuinely wishes world peace. 

I have to say. It's a little different talking about myself in the 3rd person. 

Karma.

Sometimes even the best of us make rash decisions. Bad decisions. Decisions where you pretty much know you're gonna regret the moment it happens. Maybe not regret regret because we know we put ourselves out there. But still something inside decides to do a crazy thing and we know will probably turn around and bite us in the ass. Yet, we do it anyway. What I'm saying is, we reap what we sow. What comes around, goes around. It's karma and any way you slice it, karma sucks, and doesn't suck. 

One way or another our karma will leave us to face ourselves. We can look our karma in the eye or we can wait for it to sneak up on us from behind. One way or another our karma will always find us. And the truth is, we do have a chance to set the bounds in our favor. No matter how hard we try, we can't escape our karma. It follows us home. Then again.. I guess we really can't comoplain about karma. It's not unfair. It's not unexpected. It just even the score. And even when we attempt to do something that will make karma bite us in the ass, well it goes without saying and.. we do it anyway. 

Good karma is how we want to score. I believe that as long as we are honest, sincere and do good we set our bounds in our favor. Our good karma balances out all the good things we do. The service we give to others. 

The willing heart will never faulter. 

Karma. 

How will you set your bounds? 

xoxo VIa

Live Like There's No Tomorrow

If you knew today was your last day to live, how would you spend it?

You woud find me cooking breakfast for my family. Something simple like pancakes, eggs and sausages. I would need as much energy in them as I can to get through the things I would want to do. After breakfast we would go up to Capital Hill and hike through Memorial Grove and up to Ensign Peak. At the top I would make video documentaries for both Tamara and Henele giving them the best advice I could possibly give them on life, love and the struggles that come in between. We would then head back into town for lunch at a place that would be familiar to us. Chili's or Cafe Rio. After lunch we would head home to shower and power nap. While they nap, I would make calls to those that meant the most to me and tell them that I love them. Also overlook my living will to secure the safety of the kids and go over life insurances and accounts to secure them financially. After nap time, we would get dressed up and go into town. Just my family. Me, Tamara and Henele. I would have reservations at the Joseph Smith building at the rooftop for dinner, but before, I would want to walk around Temple Square with them and simply converse with them the importance of the gospel and how it will keep us together forever. I would take many family pictures around the Temple. After dinner we would head home and I would smother them with kisses and hugs and constant "I love you"s Before laying them down to bed, you would find us on our knees. Thanking our faither in heaven for all our blessings. As they lay in bed, you would find me holding their baby books close in my arms. Making sure each page is ready for them. Making sure they're secret life letters are hidden behind each page. I would end my day with one last letter. One to each of them. The "On Your Wedding Day" letter. I don't see me crying, but accepting the Plan of Salvation and understanding it in its fullness. Through this plan, I know I will see my family again. This is only but a part of the plan. 

I may not be sealed to my kids for time and all eternity. I understand I lack a head to my household. But I do know that so long as I stay faithfull and keep my covenants, all that is promised to me in this life will also be promised to me in the life to come. I know I still have the opportunity to be sealed it's just not easy finding a companion these days. My generation is not looking at girls with kids. And for me, that's ok. I'm ok. If it happens in this life, then I will let happen on it's own. I won't guide things either which way. 

My last day to live is simple. It's passionate and just how I would want it. Thankfully I'm no where near the end and still have many dreams to pursue. I still have stumbling stones to conquer and I still have yet to make my mark. 

How would you spend yours? This question got me tthinking. 

You only live once. Take those risks, do something you wouldnt do normally, face your fear, say i love you, dance, sing, scream out loud, burn your weaknesses and spotlioght your strengths, call an old friend, write a poem of your life, trust 100%, eat chocolate, jump in a river, sprint your last lap,swing as high as you did when you were a kid then backflip off the swing, shoot a baskeball grannie style, fly a kite only to get it stuck in a tree, order a meal from mc donalds for someone homeless on the side of the street then tip the cashier and say, "youre doing a great job". 

whatever you do on your last day, dont be scared and carpe diem. =)

xoxo Via