The Urge To Splurge

I have a confession to make.

I have an online shopping addiction/problem.

I dont know what it is, but I really get this weird rush every time I find and buy something super cool online. Maybe it's the fact that we sit at home pretty much all day every day. I have nothing else to do. Now my house isn't always clean all the time, Im sure that there are plenty of things to do around the house and I have to say, this life has really got me adjusted. I still feel the same about wishing I could work and how I really hate sitting at home feeling useless. So what do I do tell help the time pass? I shop online. Bad excuse but what else can I do? Leaving the house to go to Walmart or to the park just wasn't cutting it anymore.

I really need to nip this addiction in the butt. Or I will regret it later.

Getting Back In The Swing

Wow has it been a while since I've been here. I would say that I have been very busy with the kids and even the other kids. With things this hectic these past few weeks, I'm glad I didn't take any classes this semester. It's far hard enough to just babysit.

Many turning points have made there way to our little family. Tamara is ready to head to preschool. I have to say that I am very scared. I cry just thinking about it. She has really come a very long way with me in this "single parent" journey of mine. She LITERALLY IS MY ROCK. I couldn't live or be motivated or try without Tamara. She really gives me reason and reminds me each and everyday.

Now that she not only is full on talking, she does things with understanding and never has to be told to do the simple things anymore. Like getting ready for the day, brushing her teeth in the morning and before bed, getting a snack from the fridge or pantry. She really has had to learn a lot and fast because of our "single parent" situation. And for that I am truly grateful. I always imagined the whole family dream for my life but with the way it is now, I have to say it was meant to be this way. She is so smart!

The other day they were riding their little bike around the house and Henele can't ride his by himself. I saw Tamara get off her bike and start to pull Henele around in his bike. How selfless and thoughtful is that? She really has a big heart and it definitely is a big part of my little family and our success.

Now that she is preparing to head to preschool this month, I know that she is more then ready and well prepared. And even though I know that, my heart aches cause this is a new life change for all of us. I wont have her all day long, nagging at me. I wont have her as a back up help with Henele while a take a quick shower or cook lunch. I wont have her to help pick up clutter that Henele makes. I'm gonna miss it. It will be a very big change for me. 

Lately Ive come to realize that there really is a positive side to EVERYTHING. I totally believe it. It just takes some time to think about if it isn't obvious. For the downside of how I will take Tamara going to school, the upside is that I get some one on one time with Henele. I've never really had that since he's been born and he is almost 2. That's a lot of time to not have very much one on one time. Me and Henele are used to having Tamara around but with this change it will be good for me and him to build that Mother-Son relationship. 

I am madly in love with Henele. I really really really am. There is a special bond between a mother and her son. I can't wait for me and Henele adventures. 

It's just a love/hate time in our life. 

And last, for me, school starts in two weeks and im registered for 10 credit hours. 3 classes, 2 online and 1 once a week on saturday mornings for 3 hours. Not too bad huh? I still have to buy 1 last book and I should be set for the semester. I'm ready for this semester and can't wait to tackle it. I'm determined to get the 4.0 this semester and finish with flying colors. 

Welp, that's what's going on in our lives so far. Wish us luck. Fall is my favorite season and this year I can just tell it will be great!

Happy Fall Everyone! If I don't write anytime soon, I must be having a hard time. lol So hopefully I'll be back soon. 

xoxo Via