"People are often unreasonable, irrational and self centered; forgive them anyway. If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives; be kind anyway. If you are successful, you will win some unfaithful friends and some genuine enemies; succeed anyway. If you are honest and sincere, people may deceive you; be honest and sincere. What you spend years creating, others could destroy overnight; create anyway. If you find serenity and happiness, some may be jealous; be happy anyway. The good you do today, will often be forgotten; do good anyway. Give the best you have and it may never be enough; give your best anyway. In the final analysis, it is between you and God; it was never between you and them anyway." - Mother Theresa

Thursday, September 22, 2011

Moving Forward

Sitting here listening to Take A Bow by Rihanna. This song really does describe what's going on in my life right now. And all I really want to do is smile. It's a cleansing feeling. And as much as it hurts, all I have to do is take one look at her and say to myself, "She deserves better." It helps that this time around, she doesn't ask for him. She hasn't said "dada" since he left. She's not stupid. She knows he was doing something wrong.
As I press on the gas, tears fall from my eyes and I continue to move forward. I glance at my rear view mirror and see him walking in the opposite direction. I take one deep breath in, look at the kids and say aloud to myself, "This is for the best."
Every single minute of my day and every moment I look at Tamara, I hurt. When will I get through this? I want the pain to go away. How long will it take?
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